I have this strange desire to wear a wedding dress (especially those from the 80's with satin a tiara, veil and the puffed sleeves, and great round skirts like a princess all in white or similar and then have an orgasm, but here's the thing: I am a man. Straight. Between 26 and 30 years old. Got my 1st girlfriend at age 24. Got my first (unplanned) son at age 25, we're still together and we're trying to make a future together (I am working) even though we got some hard times ahead. On one hand, I don't know why I have this strange fascination and want to do it, in a private room so no one can see me or judge me, except God (if you believe in Him or not, that's your choice). But in other hand, it seems so wrong...I am a straight man, not some girly man or gay, my face and body doesn't have some feminine complexion or whatever.
I started to have this strange fascination about white dresses (first communion dresses when i was a child and then bride dresses) since I was 5 or 6 years old. My female cousins weddings from the 1990's only awakened and expanded this strange desire...I am straight since I was little I had a crush on beautiful girls, but I was too shy, but along with that normal situation this fascination just kept growing.
At age 12 I had my first masturbation experience, I thought I was going to die, but in the end, it felt sooooo good. I then started to watch to girls in another way...I wanted to have sex. Along with this, every time I watched a woman in a wedding dress I started to get excited. I wanted to have sex to a girl dressed that way or masturbate (but not cum on it) while I wear a wedding dress...
And this situation continues until today. I love my girlfriend and my son, but I'm afraid to tell her...but all I really wanted is to own and wear a wedding dress...I already masturbated myself while I was dressed in female clothing, it felt good, but I really want to buy and at least try to know how does a girl feel in that, and then have my pleasure.
What should I do? Go see a psychologist or accept this fetish, gain some courage to buy a wedding dress, tell at least my girlfriend and enjoy myself? Please help me